March 16th 2010

On March 16th 2010, between 11:00pm and 12:00am one of the greatest men in my life passed away. My Grandpa Harold Schmiedeskamp was a great man. He served in the Air Force, he was on the VFW staff, and much more. Even though we were not close I miss him dearly and it was very hard to watch my mother, who was close to her father, go through the pain she did and still is. I know that he is with God now and no more pain, but as humans it is hard for us to accept that they are gone and NEVER coming back. I have no idea what my mom is going through because I still have both of my parents, but I know one day I will also feel her pain. I do miss my grandpa a lot and wish we would of spent more time together or talked more. I guess I will always have that regret on my plate. His birthday is next month on the 29th of April and he would of been 78. My brother is very torn over this because they have the same birthday and the same middle name. I am so glad my grandpa got to share the most important day with me though which was my wedding. I will miss him dearly and I can't wait to see him again! LOVE AND MISS YOU GRANDPA!!! R.I.P.

Grandpa Harold

So as many of you know if you see my status updates my Grandpa is really sick. When he went to the hospital they said he was a very sick man and he might not come out of the hospital for awhile. So then we waited and waited and they saw that he had an infection, but they didn't know what it was. So the doctors went in there and said he had cancer well they were 99.7 percent sure he did and they said they couldn't be more sure until my Grandpa seen the doctor that he has had for years. So he seen a cancer specialist and they cleared him of cancer so we were so excited of him being out of the water and just something else he had. They went in there and found an infection in his kidneys so they put a stint in there and a whole bunch of pus came out and he was getting better. Now he is getting worse again and they think he might has cancer again! WHAT! Cancer? So now they are going to do a bioptopsy or however you spell it and see what it is wrong with him. He is so weak and he is pretty old, his heart can't take a lot of poking and stuff. I am trying to give it all to God, but it has been really hard. He doesn't really talk to anyone except my Aunt Barbara and his girlfriend Doris, so it has been really hard for my mom since they are so close and she hasn't spoke to him in over a month because the doctors want him to save his energy. Last night my mom called me and said for sure he probably would pass away during the night time because his blood pressure or something was not suppose to get over a 5 and it was at 4.9, luckily he is still alive, wow, God is great. I just pray that if God takes him that my mother gets to say goodbye and how much she loves him. I also am praying for his salvation because the scary part is I don't know where he is going when he dies. I also wish I would of called him more and spent more time with him than I did. It is so hard, but I am just trying to give it all to God and hope that he will bring us through this which I know he will because he is God! If something happens to my Grandpa I pray that I will have the strength to talk to my mom and give her comfort which is going to be so hard. Please if you read this just pray for me and my family and my Grandpa exspecially! Love you Grandpa!